No Available Windows

That is how I feel now
My laptop knows
It told me
There are no windows
No available windows 
Windows to look from
Windows to jump from
Windows to open and get out
Windows to lock
And open
And breath
The fresh air welcoming
Regenerating my hope
My smile
My way
Of living
Every day
With a screen
And the deadline
Of a dissertation
Closeby
No available windows 
Are there?

​J.GJ. 
November 2, 2017
Boston College